The return ....

Derrick is finally back in the US of A!!! He will be at Ft. Benning in GA for a few more days and should be home in time for the weekend. I am planning on a welcome home at the airport, I'll e-mail everyone as soon as I have flight info.

Countdown

It is hard to have an actual countdown since I still do not have the exact date Derrick will be home, he suspects it will be in aprox two weeks! I will be contacting friends and relitives when I have an exact date, I would like to have a group at the airport to greet him when he gets off the plane.

bitter ... party of ....

I just read my last post, looks like I was a little pissy. The end is very near and I am feeling a lot better. Derrick should be home sometime between October 8th and the 15th or so. He has to go through a few places before his final destination home here in Columbus, OH. Everyone keeps asking me "are you excited?" and I would say more than excited, I just feel more calm and relaxed than I have in a long time. Derrick is my comfort zone. He is the factor in my life that makes everything feel safe and normal. I am ready to get back to my normal life, more ready than I have ever been for anything.

things are getting tough

It has been a bad week and it is only Tuesday for fucks sake. I don't really know what has happened here lately but all at once this whole thing seems a lot harder. I have come full circle and am just pissed again. I miss my husband, I miss my life. Fuck, I am lonely and I hate it.

Trip

Germany was awesome, we had a really great time just enjoying each other’s company and traveling around the countryside. I have so many beautiful pictures.

As suspected the trip pretty much took me back to square one with missing Derrick, basically every second that ticks by he is on my mind. Not that he was absent from my mind before, now it just aches again. It is a little easier knowing that I am only staring down about four more months. I can remember at the beginning of this process that 13 months was an incomprehensible number of days, like the end of that time would never come. We are over the hump and entering the home stretch ... these next four months can not possibly go fast enough.

Heading out

I am leaving this Thursday to fly out and visit Derrick, his R&R time has come and we are meeting in Germany. I will be able to spend 15 days with him, I am really nervous to fly alone all the way to Germany but it is worth it. I'll post when I get home about our adventure.

Birthday Bla

I have been really sick the last week or so, my birthday was on Monday and even that was a bummer. Some friends and I went out and had a little pizza party Monday night but I think that everyone else was having more fun than me. I was still feeling pretty cruddy and just really missed Derrick.

Speaking of Derrick he is doing well, he is very busy at his job, he has started a fishing club and will soon be playing on a softball team. I am glad that he has some sense of normalcy there, not that it compares to the luxuries of home but that there are many soldiers that have it much worse.