time

Time does not make this process easier. One would think that as time goes by it would get a little easier, sting a little less. Not the case friends. I have come to find that time, is an enemy of mine. Days pass by as if I am trying to run under water, more than that, some kind of viscous jelly-like goo. This is not to say that I am doing bad, because I am not, I just really miss my husband and I would do or give anything to bring him home.

Busy

I never ever thought that I would be this busy while Derrick was away. It always seemed to me that all of my extra curricular activitys revolved solely around him, apparently not. My days are moving quickly but I still can't believe that it has only been three months. I think that this deployment could be somewhat compared to a break-up, there are stages of grieving. Currently I am at a level of acceptance, not that this does not change week to week or even day to day, for the last few days I have felt good. But, for example, last Friday was not good. It seemed as every second ticked by there was a tiny little razor running across my heart. I did what I always do and got drunk, very drunk. Some people will use alcohol as a catalyst to help them bring forth emotion, I use it to dull it.

That last sentence made me sound like an alcoholic .... should I worry?

Na! Drinks anyone?

still alive

Laptop still dead.... working on it ... busy as hell! Keeping my head above water! Missing Derrick, as usual. Job is bogging me down, I will be back on-line shortly.

Love you all!

Problems ...

So my laptop took a dump and that is the reason I have not posted in so long. I am doing well and have not plunged into some pool of depression. I am hoping to have the laptop up and running in a week or so, until then I will probably not post much.

Christmas was fine and New Years was fun, of course I missed Derrick but I miss Derrick everyday so it was not much different. Tonight I am putting on Christmas for the in-laws, what a treat that will be, oh well, anything is better than Hometown Buffet.

Anyway, like I said can't post much until the laptop is repaired, but after that I should be on track again. Call me for a drink anytime....