My Favorite Person

I had a long day at work today, I was worried about missing a call from Derrick all day long. I did get a chance to talk with him a few times which is good because that will probably be the last time for a few days. I stopped in the nail salon by my gym and got my nails done and then Sue and I got take out from Bob Evans and she came over to watch a few episodes of Damages, a great show on FX. I am a big fan of FX, many of my favorite shows are on that channel; Damages, Rescue Me, and Nip Tuck, not to mention they have good movies air often.

As bedtime nears I am growing anxious, I usually have to keep the TV on to keep me company for the first hour or so until I get so tired that I stop thinking about how lonely I am, and can fall asleep. One of the things I worried least about was how lonely I would be when Derrick was gone, I have many friends and alot of family that live here in town, but you just don't realize how much time there really is in the "in between". In between the time I wake up and the time I leave for work, in between the time I get off work until the time I meet up with a friend, in between the time a friend leaves and time to go to bed. It all adds up to a huge empty void where my favorite person used to be.

I think that as time goes on I will get used to it, but for now on the day of my last phone call until who knows when, it is coming to a head of how hard this really is going to be.