Game day and Girls night

Sorry no posts for the last few days, I had friends in town and was busy with them. Friday, Sexton and Julie taught me how to play poker a skill that would later prove to be important. Saturday of course was the OSU v. Michigan game, a nice hearty win, not too exciting just glad to have a W in that column. Derrick called after the game but it was too loud in the bar and I missed the calls. As much as I try to tell myself that there is no way for me to go a year without missing a call, I still feel like crap when I do. During the game I was preoccupied with, well the game, and drinks and friends but afterward I could not help from feeling lonely, surrounded by people I love and yet still very alone. I have come to understand, in the month that Derrick has been gone, what people mean when they say "he or she completes me", and that may sound phony but it is true. I have a constant feeling that something is missing.
After my grandpa passed away, my grandma would complain about being lonely even after she had just had lunch with a friend or a movie with a family member. The family would complain, "Gosh, grandma is so needy, she has more dates with friends than any of us and she still crabs about being alone" Now, I fully understand that loneliness does not fade while you are with others, it is just more prevalent when you are actually alone.
Saturday after the game a gaggle of people piled into Sexton's apartment for some poker, I played all night and ended up with about $18.00 to show for it, not too bad for the first time. It was a really good time, we drank and laughed and, of course ate bacon. Sexton is always good for some cards and bacon. After drinking for a solid 12 hours, it was time to retire home for some much needed slumber. It pretty much went like this since Julie and Ramji arrived, Thursday: drunk, Friday: drunk, Saturday: extra drunk, Sunday: Waffle House!
Last night was the first monthly girls night, it was at my house and ended up being a really good time. We played catch phrase and I think even Keri had fun, as reluctant as she initally was. We had a ton of food, hours'dovers are my speciality, basically I am Cher from Mermaids. Beer, wine, and delicious dirty martinis, what else is there, really. There were 11 girls total and I think that everyone enjoyed themselves. The crowd thinned a little after 10 o'clock and the remaining girls played a few rounds of Right, Left, Center. Man, I love that game, next time I will have to remind people to bring their own quarters/dollars. A very fun night overall.

The last few nights I have not been able to sleep, I was flipping channels around a few nights ago and caught a snip-it from the movie The Exorcism of Emily Rose, many of you may know I am a total scardie cat, when I was younger I used to get scared and go sleep with my younger brothers. Up until the movie snip-it I was sleeping pretty well, I am hoping this will fade soon. One of my brothers is living downstairs but I don't really think it is acceptable for me to get in bed with him anymore, especially since his girlfriend lives there. I have volleyball tonight and will hopefully work-out after that so maybe I will be so tired I will sleep through the night. Keep your fingers crossed.