the last few days ...

Tuesday was a better day, we lost the game but the team was good and it was a fun time. Our team went out for drinks at Plank's and of course we all took it too far and got too drunk for a "school night", I was thinking of Derrick and how would not have approved staying out until last call on a weekday and how had he been there with me, Wednesday would not have been so painful. Wednesday evening I went and had dinner with my sister-in-law and we had fun chatting, when dinner was over we went to a little store called Deals, everything in Deals is a dollar, so tell me how is it that I walked out of there with $50.00 worth of crap. I have issues.
Currently I am at work and it is not much fun at all, my system is down and there is nothing for me to do. When I am not busy (and even sometimes when I am) my mind wanders to Derrick and how much I miss him. Daily life without him really sucks. It's not hard, just a little painful, sometimes a lot painful, sometimes down right unbearable. This morning when I was showering I was thinking about how much fun Thanksgiving always is, my family always has a big production and it is really just a ton of fun, then all at once I realized that Derrick would not be with me and I got really upset. Sometimes I think that this is a practical joke, like at any given moment someone is going to jump out in front of me and say "SURPRISE, you're on Candid Camera!
The next few days are going to be good ones, I have some great friends in town from California and I can't wait to spend time with them and the rest of the old Brian Brou's gang. I love all of those friends very deeply, it is a very strange bond that we all hold. I mean really, we all met in a bar, a bar that closed down. But to this day we are all friends and that is something to hold onto. I guess when you find the people you are meant to be with there is just a glue that holds everyone together and distance and time is not something that will dissolve the bond. Hell, I met Derrick in a bar that that worked.